Not For Me

Walking in golden halls
Witness the beauty of it all
What’s on display
Is not for you to have
Not for me

Drifting from place to place
Meeting strangers
Always there’s a
Wall in front of you
Something inside
Keeps you from them
Mental isolation
Watching them walk
All around you
Corpses-to-be
In their own world
Never knowing
What’s in front of them
Before it’s too late

Visiting cathedrals of glory
Witness all that is holy
What you can see
You can never have
Not for me

Standing still
Without moving
At the feast
Of a carnivore
You just observe
Being left out
Obsolete
Left no choices
But to escape
To your own mind
Your only refuge
Fearing your own
Ever growing
Appetite

As should they!

Roaming the walkways of sin
Witness all the ruin
What you have seen
You will never have

The Scorpion

I caught a strange creature
I put it in a cage
I fed it, I played with it
But still it died of boredom

I caught another one
This time I tried harder
I fed it, I played better games
Every day something new was near

Are you a Scorpion?
Do you need it all
Fresh and shiny
Never satisfied
And never pleased what you have

Never pleased with your old toys?
What will you do with one more day
When there will be nothing new in sight?

Are you the Scorpion?
Do you need it all
Fresh and shiny
Never satisfied

As your greed grows
Nothing seems to be enough
Soon in your eyes even new is too old
And in boredom you wither till your final heart beat

Are you a Scorpion?
Do you need it all
Fresh and shiny
Never satisfied
And never pleased what you have
And committed your suicide in vain

Truly in vain!

anew

If I believed in signs
I’d believe in this one

Betrayed!
Once again I’ve been betrayed
By a traitor
Scum!
That’s what I have become
To the world
Lost!
All sense of purpose lost
I’m so lost
Revenge!
I will have my revenge
In the end

The taste of blood
Fuels my rage
My vengeance
Will be upon you
Forever!

Conspiracy!
To fuck with my mind
All around
I’m not sound
Deceit!
How can I believe in anything
But deceit?
Sanity!
Offered on the altar of jealousy
Nothing left
Deception!
Gives way to determinism
Cynicism victorious

This is what we’re born into
This is where we must take our lives

So once again you begin anew
Another ending reserved just for you
All the remorse
Another cycle runs its course
None of the redemption
Nor real salvation
Let go of your pain
All the thoughts slain
All towers will fall
All beginnings must die!

To survive
I’ll learn to hate

Reality!
There is no escaping reality
We’re all trapped
Hollow!
Carved to the flesh inside
The hollow point
I’m not alone
Though all I know broke long ago
I have my company
The reaper and almighty king alcohol

Cut the red wings
Shed the scalded skin
I have crucified my demons!

Fate!
I will succumb to my fate
No choice
Defeat!
All I feel is defeat
And disgust
Faith!
I’ve lost my faith in everything
Even in pity
Enemy!
There is no enemy
No god no satan
Just myself

Ran out of rage
No more blood
No vengeance
Will ever be mine!